What a crazy few months it’s been! My new job has been incredibly hectic and I feel continually exhausted after dealing with crazy teenagers all day… teaching is definitely not for the faint hearted, no wonder so many are leaving in droves! On top of that, the ones that remain in the profession seem to be the ones that are in it to career climb… so instead of developing relationships and making it about teaching, there’s a lot of negative politics and unfortunate back stabbing.
I try to stay out of it of course, but there seems to be so many ways we are asked to waste time that it’s been getting ridiculous 😖🙈
This term in particular is the worst of course, lots of coursework and mock exams etc… which of course is expected and fine… however the constant scrutiny is frankly nuts! Seems like there’s always a member of slt round the corner, busy telling staff that they are just not working hard enough… it does not make for a good work environment ☹️
My kids, really struggled initially to settle in their new school, there were so many tears all round 😭😰😢 my poor son was heartbroken to leave his old school and he found the new one too big. Thankfully, they have settled a bit more now and seem to have made more friends… am keeping my fingers crossed that their experience stays positive!
Withe regards to the divorce there’s been no movement 😠 husband seems reluctant to sign forms and his parents have continuously requested my parents to speak to me and convince me to return to their city, lol! They all feel I should move back, even if I don’t want to stay married, so that they can see the kids. In return they will pay for my rent! 😂 what a ridiculous proposition. Didn’t take me long to say no to that one!
What has been difficult though has been access arrangements, my Ex (Imz) refuses to travel to meet the kids, since we have been here he has only travelled down once… that’s once since we moved in august! Apparently it’s too difficult to drive down… however, in the meanwhile he has driven up and down the country participating in races! Selfish git. Instead he moans and continuously tries to emotionally blackmail me into handing the kids over for all the holidays… bloody ridiculous.
I’ve always said he can speak to the kids anytime, but of course he objects to the fact that they aren’t constantly available as they do clubs and after school lessons. He blames me for the distance in his relationship with them, but in the meanwhile, he barely calls them, never visits them and then gets angry if they don’t pay attention to what he’s saying.
Between work, kids and home, I’ve been feeling completely overwhelmed… and it’s going to get worse when parents go off on holiday and I have to sort out child care etc ☹️
I’m hoping this year will lead to some positive changes… hopefully we will all learn and grow and adapt… hopefully I will be further along in my journey to be free 🐛🦋